Monday, February 2, 2009

Freaking Out

I'm freaking out!  I just fixed up my resume and the reality of my current situation really hit me. 

I'll be leaving here in less than two weeks.  I will most likely never see any of these people again. I don't mean to be dramatic but it's true.  I had some really good times here.  This was my first real job out of College.  I went through pregnancy here and bouts of nausea.  I brought my baby in for a baby shower and my boss gave Aixah her swing set. I won my first game of RISK ever, here.  Our chocolate cake and beer events...our falafel lunches...my arguments with Bossman...I'm not ready for any of this to be over.  And I don't want their business to fail, not at all.  The mere thought makes me sad.  

My boss asked me how I was feeling, she is such a sweetheart, and I see the sadness reflected in her eyes.  I want to make things better for her.  And I want to keep my job because I am comfortable here.  And it scares me to have to pick up and leave and start over again.

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